last nite, called the gang..needed the,,needed to meet them..told best buddy over MSN first..hmm,Jaysen was pretty taken aback by wad i told him la,so was i , initially.
after hearing..he helped me call imelda,kristine, marco, gordon, anne,keane n told his sis. but jasmine was asleep alr..hahs. yea like..2am? O.O
haix..its really in times like this tat u truly appreciate ur frens..and be assured that they really care. like, wad the hell? 2am? and they still come down rite after hearing wad shit happened to me?
im blessed. Thank God for that.
hmm..we met at keane's voideck..tried very damn best to talk..arghhhhhh..my voice T-T
but still abitttt voice la...so poured out everything la..n ....i cant believe i cried on a gal's shoulder. firstly, wad teh hell, i cried? secondly, wad the hell, in front of gals????
but its imelda..so..not tat embarrassing la..close frens(:
haix...some of them were just speechless lor..anyway, sorry guys for making u all so worried...esp imelda..sorry):
ur sister told me u cried when u reached home..im sorry): don cry cus of me...it will make my heart break further.
haix...
was using keane's fone to sms adeline...sorry oso): woke u up): n u still bothered to reply..i tot u wouldnt..but u did..thx.
poured out all tat was within me la...and sorry for using so much vulgar. i was seriously shocked by wad i texted u...and im sincerely SORRY
it shall be my first and i last. ok? sorry...
suppose to text u until 7am..but..zzzzzzz police caught us ...walao wad u say really happen..police come!
arhhh..so run n run n run lor..the whole lot of us..was worried for the gals..donno they can run anot..but, walao, they pro la..all run diff directions..den police lost track.
imelda was wif me..haha..she pulled my hand den run..FASTER than me?!?! den from street 12 run until toa payoh..not say very far la..3 bustops away?
haix..ya den imelda called everyone..say meet at de playground. it was alr abt 3plus 4 am alr..talk abit while more den i ask them go home alr la..i tink their parents would kill them..haix.
but imelda n keane stayed behind..they wanted to accompany cus they scared i do silly stuffs-.-
keane was very tired..so he slept at the voideck there..leavin me n her in an awkward silence......
i tot of it again n shit..tears started to fall again. cried on her shoulder...haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
now eyes n throat very pain...T-T
unknowingly..i fell asleep alr..when woke up, it was 6am. imelda was asleep..put her hand back at her lap den i ran away...wif keane's fone.
den around 8am..received smses from imelda's sister thru keane's hp. yea..tats how i noe she cried. hmm...after tat was smsing adeline the whole time...haix so sorry to dampen ur mood la. really sorry.
zzzz...i donno wad to say alr. just came back from polyclinic..now outside imelda's house...blogging-.- using dustbin as table..zzz. i don wan go in the hse cus im scared her mum will asks me about stuffs..i tink. i heard shes noe abt wad happened.....
zzz. i noe imelda's mum cares la..but sry, i don wan go in the hse. i;ll jus sit here in the rain...n....blog. i don even dare to go home now...mum n dad will go crazy...
n arghhhh...doc say i might be loosing my voice for quite some time..maybe even permanently!!!?!? nonononono..y is all this happening to me??
and my knuckles r hurting like shit. punched the walls till they bled. wad a way to venge my anger.
physical n emotional hurt...nth can ever be compared to this fucking emotional pain im going through now.
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